You are not your thinking moving through your mind, like sticks and soft leaves in a gentle river.
You are not your thinking seemingly stuck on repeat like a heavy cloud covering the sky on a stormy day.
You are not the feelings, heavy nor light, that dance or stomp through you in perfect unison with each thought.
You are not your past experiences. What is experienced is thinking in the real time moment of Now.
You are not the sticky note labels you, others or society define you by - the list of labels being endless but none True…
If who you are, is not this, then who are you, in this moment?
Text: Trine Høhrmann, © 2021
Today ask yourself “what am I grateful for?”
The question “what am I grateful for?” is not a question to be answered in intellekt by your personal mind.
For the purpose of this exercise I invite you to look within giving yourself the gift of stillness.
Stillness is not no-thinking or the avoidance of thinking.
Stillness is always present. Always there. Always available.
The ebb and flow of stillness is simply our awareness contrating and expanding.
With kindness and in your mind ask:
“what am I grateful for?”
Pause - Breathe - Be
Let what wants to show up show up.
I notice that my best decisions are made from clarity and inner quiet, a deeper knowing if you will.
From that space there is no decision to make but a meaningful and natural direction in which to move.
I notice time and time again that what is always holding me back from living the highest version of who I am is me innocently believing my personal thinking is Truth.
When in fact it can't be Truth. Truth is consistent. Truth is true 100% of the time all of the time. Whether I think I can or can't do something or who I think I am in any given moment is always changing, and therefor is not Truth.
The Truth - we are, by design, whole and intact. Like the sky. No matter the severity of the storm the sky remains clear and intact. The only thing that can take us away from knowing this? Innocently misunderstanding where our experience is coming from 100% of the time, every time.
What if decisions where made, not from what you think about, but from what occurs natural for you to do when you explore from an open mind and open heart?
The clearer we see who we are and our innate qualities as human beings the clearer we see it in others, and we naturally become more impactful and effective in serving the people in our community.
I'm often asked "so how do I do that?", "what are the tools?". My best how-to tool is simple "stay in the conversation, continue exploring and you may be surprised by what you see." We often turn, and sometimes we even run away from the conversation because we fear what will happen when we dare not be afraid of loosening the grip on what we think we know. That's human. All it means is that in those moments we listen not from an open mind and open heart but to the intellect/ego.
I've noticed that a lot of times when we listen to people struggling with the human experience we are quick to jump to conclusions, to give advice and let them know about all the ways in which they can fix, change or let go off what is being experienced. Regardless of whether the advice is to fix what's being felt on the inside or change what is outside of us that looks like it is causing the feelings on the inside.
All of it well-meaning, and I can't help but think that the motivation for the advice is an undiscovered belief that we as human beings are inherently broken and therefore in need of fixing, and that we as the ones struggling have to look for answers outside of us because we ourselves operate under an undiscovered belief that we are not Enough. That we do not already have within us the answers that will effortlessly remove the invisible mountain of our own hidden beliefs about who we are and what we can and can not do. That we are Enough.
Advice, no matter how well-meaning does nothing or very little for the person asking for or getting the advice. Why? Because only we ourselves Know what is meaningful for us to do (or not do).
The biggest, best and most impactful tools and how to's arise from the silent space within. The space in which thought is flowing freely.
My best advice is to give no-advice, but simply to Listen.
Yesterday I began John Wheeler's book Full Stop! The Gateway to Present Perfection. Speaking to our non-dual nature I laughed out loud when I read:
"Why would the sky look for itself in a mass of passing clouds? It would never imagine itself to be one among the number of clouds that happen to be appearing, saying, ‘That particular cloud is me’."
I laughed because in that instant I saw an image, an insight if you will, of me pointing to my own passing thought-clouds saying "This is me. This is me. No this is me. This is me."
I can fool around with my thinking for better or for worse believing each thought to be telling me the truth about who I am and what is possible. This is called being human.
And then I read something like this and I start laughing because I remember I am the awareness aware of thinking.
There is this light that shines so brightly it lights up every nook and cranny of your being.
The darkness you feel is you innocently believing your thinking. Thoughts like a shadow-blanket, a veil if you will looking, feeling and sounding so real you smell and taste it. You innocently believing your experience is telling you about who you are, what you can and can not accomplish in life, that you should be more, do more, live better. When in truth you are enough!
Your heart lies intact and pure only momentarily covered with specks of dust. You are not broken. You only think you are. Your light shines brightly the rays like prisms revealing your true colors. I see your heart and I feel the truth of it in my own. Do you know this light? Do you know this essence and truth of who you are?
I point to the formless and constant of our experience; that we experience from the inside-out 100% of the time, that we are whole regardless of what we may believe, and that we already contain all we need to navigate in life. I invite you to listen.